Before I could even get myself together this morning, I suddenly got so happy. Seeing a rainbow first thing in the morning is the most wonderful thing ever. It gives me hope, so much hope that even a storm comes a rainbow will always appear afterwards and that only means a brighter day. I like how I’m slowly turning into that sunflower I always wished to be - only looking where the sun is, the brighter side. Today went well. Really balanced if you’ll ask me. This day gives me so much memories about my old friend. Memories I wish I could erase and keep forever at the same time. Back then, we used to skip clubbing every Friday just to play Hide and Seek. We would laugh at the smallest things inside the classroom. Even though we look insane to everyone and even to our Math teacher, we never got tired laughing together. We used to seat on the grass, talking to each other, sharing funny moments, sharing gossips and even sharing secrets under the sun. We used to play a game - I can’t remember what they call it though, using a pencil and a paper but it was the most entertaining war game I’ve ever played in my whole life. We used to make letters for each other whenever our teachers ask us to do one for our friends. We used to eat lunch at the back of our school’s statue and sneak in our gadgets and take pictures together or even play PSP. Those days were the happiest days of my life. Everything went fine, nothing went wrong. And I should’ve known that it has to end, but I didn’t knew better because it ended so soon, sooner than I thought. Reminiscing of those days just get me all gloomy and sad. And I hate it. Because up until now I wish I could’ve saved that friendship. That friendship that disappeared faster than I imagined. I hate it because even after two years, I still get emotional over this. Fatuous of me to still not let go even though I thought I did already. On the other side, today was fine because I finally got to play my sport after months of not doing so. I still don’t have the confidence to play it, and I hope I can gather as much as confidence I could get. And well, I didn’t get angry today. I had no headache today either. Nonetheless, the day went by fast again. In the afternoon though, the clouds had different sides. Dark and gloomy clouds were on the left side of the sky and white and puffy clouds were on the right side. Pretty much one of the reasons why I said this day was balanced.At the back of my mind, I thought the clouds represented life. There are times when the sun is covered with dark gloomy clouds but time will come those clouds are going to be replaced by whiter, puffier and happier clouds. We should never let sadness eat us, because it will swallow us hard when we do. I may sound too unrealistic but sometimes we have to let go of the real world even just for awhile. I contemplated that this way, we can all be happy. But we should still grasp the reality because being too unrealistic might hurt us. Ah, too much thoughts for a day.

  Nevertheless, we have Saturday classes tomorrow and even though I hate it, I have to go. Today’s lesson would be: Let go of what hurts you. We’re never oblige to hold on to the people who make us unhappy. We have the every right to let go. Sometimes, letting go is better than staying. At first, you might feel incomplete but you’ll get used to it. Just like how you did to every pain you felt before.

   One more thing, I have stopped interfering others. I have stopped interfering others’ problems because I know in the end, I’ll be one of their problems. I have stopped trying to be there because I know nothing really lasts forever.

  Still sending all the typhoon victims prayers. May God continue to be with everyone. And today, I honestly wish someone could see the light, the hope he/she has been searching for so long now.

  Sending all the happiest birthday greetings to my old friend. May you have a good one and may you continue to have a happy life.

xoxo, C.B.